Beautiful!

Last night I was working my shift at Blockbuster, I looked up from the register to see the most handsome man I have ever seen. He literally took my breath away! I stared at him for a minute before I remembered I was in public and that is considered inappropriate. He asked me to help him find "Into the Wild" so I did (cause that is basically my job... although helping him was much more fun cause it was something nice to look at).

When he came up to check out, I still couldnt stop staring. It is weird because normally I am attracted to men with dark hair and dark complexions. But he was neither. He had really blond hair with light skin. His face looked like someone I could picture as a prince from a romance novel. Words really cant describe what I thought when I saw him.

In all honesty, he was gorgeous but way out of my league. But I can dream cant I!!!! ;) Maybe I will see him again at Blockbuster???? And I can make a fool out of myself again, with drool hanging off of my lip! Hahah... here's hoping!

Crazy World... Striving for Patience

Well, my job search is going horribly. Next week is when teachers go in to get their classrooms ready and I am still without a job. I keep hoping something will come up but it seems like a long shot. I know that I can always substitute but that is not what I want to do. I am such a shy person... it scares me to think about going into a different classroom everyday with students who are not mine and trying to control them. Michelle says its not so bad, but it terrifies me!!!! On the other hand substituting does have a few pluses: Not as much take home stuff, I dont have work everyday if I dont want to, I can leave right when I am done without having to worry about staying longer... there are probably more but right now it is hard to think of a whole lot of them.

On church on Sunday, the message was about doing God's will, not your own, and being patient for His will because He is not on your time line. I felt as though the pastor was talking to me. I have been in a place in my life for awhile now that I am thinking "what about me? Did you forget me Lord?" I am without a job (right now, by choice I know), I have been single for like ever and a day, I do not have a clear future, yadda yadda yadda... it feels like I am waiting for something, anything, to happen. But throughout the message, I realized I was trying to bend God's will for me into something that I thought would make me happy. Now I realize I do not know what is best for me, I only think I do. God's plan is way better than any I could come up with so I need to stop trying to control my future and look to God to show me the way. Not that this will be easy for sure. For one, God is very cryptic and doesnt just tell you what he wants you to do (even though I wish he would just come down and let me know!!!!) I need to pray more I think and spend more quiet time with the Lord so I have the time to hear His voice because right now, in this crazy hectic life, it is hard to hear anything above the loud hum of life. I guess I need to wear ear-plugs!

Alright, thats enough for now... Brittany Out!

Job Search

So its a no go for both interviews that I have had. The kindergarten one wanted an applicant with more Spanish skills, which was kind of a relief since I would have had to teach all in Spanish. That would have been a huge challenge for me to overcome. And the 5th grade at Reedville went to another applicant. She said I was one of the top applicants but who knows how many people she said that too. Oh well I am just going to assume they really did like me.

That means I am still looking!!! Bummer... I really was hoping to have a job soon... And there really arent any openings right now. stinky socks. I guess God is just freeing me up for the perfect job and leading me where I can be used to for His good. I just wish He would hurry up and let me know what (and where) that good is.

I really have nothing else to say at the moment... Brittany Out

I got an Interview for an ALL Spanish Kindergarten Class!!!

Ok... I am freaking out and yet totally excited! I just got called by a principal for a position in a Spanish speaking Kindergarten Class!! I didnt even apply for this position, but she called me anyways. And my mom says she is a wonderful principal to work for.

I am nervous because I do not know if my Spanish skills are good enough to teach in it. It would be my dream to do something like this. I just need to get over my fear of being imperfect and go for it!!!

Wish me luck!!