Here are thoughts from my day, things going on, books, movies... pretty much whatever I feel the need to write at the moment... hope you ENJOY!!
Monday, December 29, 2008
New Year's Resolutions
1- Do the Daniel Fast for 40 days starting on the 1st of January.
This goal is one I have been wanting to do for a long time, but something always gets in the way. I did do it for 2 weeks last year and I felt great. But then something came along and I fell off the wagon. If you are not sure what the Daniel Fast encompasses, here are the basics: No meat, no dairy, no sugar. Basically all natural stuff so your body can cleanse and heal itself. I will be bloggin throughout my journey talking about my successes and struggles.
2- Focus on prayer: Before meals, in the morning, and in the evening.
This is an area of my life I have wanted to work on for a long time because I know my relationship with the Lord will grow exponentially but just havent due to outside things getting in the way. I bought a women's Bible with a focus on prayer (for $65!!!) to help me stay focused. Which brings me to my next goal...
3- Read my entire NIV Bible in 2009 and memorize a Bible verse every month.
I read through my Message Bible in 2008(well I almost made it, I only had a couple of books to go and will finish those before I start school on Jan 5th). Now I would like to experience God's word in another fashion, the NIV translation. This time through I am going to add another dimension by memorizing Bible verses.
So there you go... My hopes for the New Year. I will try my hardest to Blog a little more. But I dont even know if anyone besides Michelle reads my blogs. Oh well... I will do it just for you Michelle :)
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Friday, October 3, 2008
Crazy?!?!
Since the scrolls were worth a lot of money, someone made the point (for arguments sake, I do not believe they actually would have done this) that they could have sold the scrolls and gotten some money out of it. But if they would have sold the scrolls it would have just been passing on the sin instead of getting rid of it. Which is like saying "these things are destroying my life so I must get rid of them, but its okay if they destroy your life." In selling the scrolls it would have also created another sin, love of money over God.
During class I began to think of how this related to my life. I think the sin that has been laying on my heart for awhile is the Sex and the City series. I own all the seasons and the movie came out a few months ago. Since I gave my life to Christ, I have not been into the series. I believe with my whole heart the Lord was telling me that I needed to give up this vice and actually did not go see the movie (although I did read about how it ended). It was not so much the series but what the series stood for: promoting casual sex and promiscuity. I did not want to take part in that anymore.
Even though this is my belief, I kept the DVDs of the series, telling myself that it was ok as long as I was not watching them. Which is stupid when you think about it. I even toyed with the idea of selling them on CraigsList or something, but never got around to it. So, back to the Sunday school connection, I think the Lord used the lesson to bring to my attention my "scrolls" (or Sex and the City DVDs) and how they were weighing me down and keeping me from being closer to him. Even though I didnt watch them, they were there in my space. And I couldnt sell them because that was just passing a sin on and not getting rid of it.
So... what did I do??? The people in the Bible burned their scrolls... I threw mine away!!
Crazy?!?!? Maybe.
Crazy for the Lord?!?!? Absolutely!!
Sunday, September 28, 2008
Mom?!?!
Second time, we were at the nail salon getting pedicures. First the ladies asked me if I were paying for the pedicures (there were 4 of us! haha). I said "No" and thought nothing of it. Later Kala told me her girl asked her if mom was paying, and pointed to me!!! Two time!!! In 24 hours!!! What is this world coming too?????
Conclusion: I am old!
Saturday, September 13, 2008
God is SOOOO Good!
Anyways, school roles around and I start putting things together for subbing. All the while questioning my choice in career. Being away from teaching for so long, I was beginning to forget my love for it. Disappointed with where I was and no prospects of getting anywhere, I lost hope and faith in the fact the Lord had a plan.
With all of this going on in my life, my doubts and fears, I get a call on Wednesday from Crystal at Henry. She got an FTE position for a 1/2 blend class and wanted me to come in and interview on Thursday for it. I was SOOOO excited!! I researched blend classes and wrote down some notes to take into the interview with me.
Thursday roles around and I am feeling pretty good. Taking into account I had already interviewed here, I felt more comfortable and ready. The interview went well, but it was really short, which meant either they already knew they wanted me or they knew who they did want.
Friday morning I got a call from Crystal saying I didnt get the job. I was super disappointed and really began to question my choice in careers. If I couldnt even get a teaching job, maybe I wasnt cut out for it and the universe was trying to tell me something.
But here is where the story really gets cosmic and obviously God-directed, after Crystal tells me I didnt get the position, she lets me know that Butternut (my old elementary school) has a temporary position opening up and she will e-mail the principal and tell her about me. She also suggested I give Butternut a call and let them know I am interested. After I got off the phone, I woke up (I was sleeping when she called... haha) and was just supper down-in-the-dumps and just moping around the house. I let everyone know I didnt get it. In the afternoon I started contemplating calling Butternut. It was a real dilemma for me because I didnt want to be a bother to the principal. The position wasnt even posted yet. So I asked my mom if she thought I should call. She said ya, and just ask if I could maybe drop my resume off after school.
I decided to call at 2:45ish, which was an hour away. In the meantime I decided to go down to the pool and enjoy the sun. I get down there and start talking to Tiffany about everything and telling her how humbling it is to not get a job, because before this I had gotten every job I applied for and really wanted. As I am mid-sentence with her, my phone rings. It is a Hillsboro number so I kinda get excited but not hoping for too much. I answer the phone and it is the principal from Butternut!!! She tells me about the position, it is a temporary 1st grade until the end of October, and asks if I can start on Monday!! I didnt even have to interview for it, let alone I hadnt even met her!! Wow!!!
All I can say is I am sorry I doubted God, because He certainly had a plan for me!
Tuesday, September 9, 2008
Melting Pot!!! Yummm..... Double Yummm
Funny and slightly embarrassing story... we are eating our dessert and finish the 2 plates the Waiter brings out and want more... so we ask and get it. Then a couple of minutes later our Waiter brings our bill over and says this: "Here is your bill whenever you are ready. Oh ya and inside the bill there are mints. You can dip THOSE in the chocolate TOO!!!" OMG.... I am surprised he didnt make Oinking sounds after he told us this. I was so embarrassed. Tiff said we should have responded with "I'll dip YOU in the chocolate!" Hahah... I probably would have... the chocolate was amazing!
And here is the best part... although I am lactose intolerant... I did NOT get sick!!! yea me!!
Tuesday, September 2, 2008
So I am totally obsessed with the Twilight series. I remember seeing the books awhile ago, but thought nothing of it. Then my mom (yes, I said my mom) checked it out from the library and was reading it. She said it was pretty good so I thought I would check it out. Little did I know it would just open up a whole can of obsession worms, not to be confused with normal earth worms. I read the first book in a day. And this is no little feat, the book is over 500 pages long!!!!! I immediately bought the other 2 books and read those each in a day. Luckily for me, I got into the series right when the fourth book came out. I got up early that Saturday to go to Target to make sure I got a copy.
Just in case you are wondering the books, in order, are Twilight, New Moon, Eclipse, and Breaking Dawn.
For people who know me really well, they know I am prone to obsession: Obsession of subway, home-made potato french fries, noodles and parmesan cheese, movies (Lord of the Rings, Harry Potter, etc.), books. This Twilight obsession is just the most recent in a long history of obsessions. My infatuation of this books stems from the love between the two main characters. I think it was really easy to get into the story because it is written in first person; I could really imagine myself as Bella Swan, the love of Edward's life who happens to be a vampire. In the deep darkest parts of my brain I have always wanted something fantastically supernatural to happen to me. Oh I know it will never happen, but some part of me is a little sad it will never happen. That is why is read so much, I can pretend! The two main characters are made for each other in a weird creepy, yet totally romantic way. I love how Edward protects Bella with his life and puts her at the center of his being. She not only is a part of his life, but is his life. To be loved wholly like that is my dream. Sometimes I dont think I will ever find something so all consuming and will have to either settle or live my life alone, either of which is terrifying to someone who longs for her soul mate like me.
NEwaz, I know it is just fiction, but it is fun fiction. And if you are looking for a book to read on those rainy days, I would recommend this series. But it is a young adult book so dont expect anything too profound, just some good old fashioned fun!
Monday, September 1, 2008
Prideful Heart Vs. Humble Heart
It hit home for me because I think overall I am a humble person, but in saying that I am having pride in being humble. I also have been know to say that I am a good teacher and districts dont realized what they are missing out on by not hiring me. And that statement in and of itself reaks of pride. I also always wonder why I dont have a boyfriend because I would say that I am a good catch. And yet again another statement that has its basis in pride. I realized it is a fine line between pride and actual humility. People often hide pride in the phrase "self-esteem". But there is a difference in having a strong sense of self and promoting yourself. If you have to keep telling people how great you are, no one will actually have time to discover that for themselves.
During the sermon I was convicted. I need to work on thanking God for things that go well in my life instead of thinking it had anything to do with me. I need to do things that God would admire in me and quit trying to make other people like me to build my "self-esteem".
Thursday, August 21, 2008
Beautiful!
When he came up to check out, I still couldnt stop staring. It is weird because normally I am attracted to men with dark hair and dark complexions. But he was neither. He had really blond hair with light skin. His face looked like someone I could picture as a prince from a romance novel. Words really cant describe what I thought when I saw him.
In all honesty, he was gorgeous but way out of my league. But I can dream cant I!!!! ;) Maybe I will see him again at Blockbuster???? And I can make a fool out of myself again, with drool hanging off of my lip! Hahah... here's hoping!
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
Crazy World... Striving for Patience
On church on Sunday, the message was about doing God's will, not your own, and being patient for His will because He is not on your time line. I felt as though the pastor was talking to me. I have been in a place in my life for awhile now that I am thinking "what about me? Did you forget me Lord?" I am without a job (right now, by choice I know), I have been single for like ever and a day, I do not have a clear future, yadda yadda yadda... it feels like I am waiting for something, anything, to happen. But throughout the message, I realized I was trying to bend God's will for me into something that I thought would make me happy. Now I realize I do not know what is best for me, I only think I do. God's plan is way better than any I could come up with so I need to stop trying to control my future and look to God to show me the way. Not that this will be easy for sure. For one, God is very cryptic and doesnt just tell you what he wants you to do (even though I wish he would just come down and let me know!!!!) I need to pray more I think and spend more quiet time with the Lord so I have the time to hear His voice because right now, in this crazy hectic life, it is hard to hear anything above the loud hum of life. I guess I need to wear ear-plugs!
Alright, thats enough for now... Brittany Out!
Friday, August 15, 2008
Job Search
That means I am still looking!!! Bummer... I really was hoping to have a job soon... And there really arent any openings right now. stinky socks. I guess God is just freeing me up for the perfect job and leading me where I can be used to for His good. I just wish He would hurry up and let me know what (and where) that good is.
I really have nothing else to say at the moment... Brittany Out
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
I got an Interview for an ALL Spanish Kindergarten Class!!!
I am nervous because I do not know if my Spanish skills are good enough to teach in it. It would be my dream to do something like this. I just need to get over my fear of being imperfect and go for it!!!
Wish me luck!!